Friday, September 10, 2010

Thankfulness

After these several months of quietude it's time I begin blogging again. Only this morning did I feel the actual surge to begin sharing. I've thought of many blog posts, subjects and bits and pieces of my life to share but so many seemed so inconsequential in light of what's been happening in the lives of my son and his son's life, that to share seemed a waste of time to write and to read. It just didn't seem right somehow. I've been conflicted about my silence but also holding the knowledge of my circumstances as validation. Many know that my son has been involved in a custody suit. Our grandson's well-being has been the cause of deliverate focus and attention. There are things yet to be determined but we are excited and confident a reasonable outcome is in the offing. The final custody court date, unless settled beforehand, falls on the date of my fathers birthday. In January. A paternallly good sign. I'm in a state of thankfulness after being in warrior mode, ever vigilant in these last several momnths watching and waiting. Being a grandmother under these circumstances has not been easy but many many others face very very hard situations as well. I will be more transparent about the struggle offering things I've learned thru this process to those that may be encountering similar circumstances in the future. Still, there are things to concern myself with in regard to our grandson's care so I know I will be posting with infrequent regularity. But, I am thankful. Yes, so thankful. I can tell you this. Hold on. Hold on, God loves you and is faithful to his promises. Stand on them. All will be well.

5 comments:

paper-n-soul said...

What a beautiful post. I do understand, as my son and three-year-old grandson live with us.

Thank you for posting this. I wish you the best possible outcome.

~Deb

icandy... said...

amazing words from an amazing woman. hold on. hold on is such a powerful phrase, you will be blessed, my love.
sending angels,
oxox

Colette George said...

Deb, thank you for connecting and the wonderful benediction. You've warmed my heart and touched me.
Very best to you

Christina "M" ;)
what a blessing you have been to me. Always there, always encouraging. YOU are one of the angels you send.
Love you

God bless you both, you each are truly amazing beings. Respectfully yours. Colette

Lola M. said...

Warrior mode is exhausting, take the paternally good sign and be at peace until you must be at the ready again January. xoxo

Halo Hill said...

Thank you for sharing! I've been where you are, and it is heart wrenching. You will be in my prayers. I am going through one of the toughest parts of my life right now. Trying to hold on to my faith, and not let the panic take hold, is the good fight.

It is especially hard to be going through something awful (as we both are right now)... knowing the right answer, knowing the truth of the matter, knowing that it is all so unjust, knowing it is unfair, unjust, knowing people you adore are being put through something they should not be, knowing the others involved do not know the Lord or care about anyone other than themselves... knowing you cannot say anything about it is enough to kill ya, I know. But it doesn't kill us, His love never fails. I'm with ya, sister.

Love,
Sheila